Holidays~~

Saturday..
Morning wake up at 7am..
Still have a bit of not in good mood..
Mom fetch XC to sch for his pengawas camp..
I stay at home..
Sweep the floor then hang clothes..
Online a short while
Thn play piano..
Whn my mom come home, we have breakfast together..
After breakfast have nothing to do..
Mom go upstairs with my dad..
Wait.. Slack.. Until 11
Getting ready for tkd..
Around 11.45, on the way to sch..
Had an extremely good moment in tkd XD

Whn I got home, my dad planned to clean up the yard/garden (i called it forest though XP)
Found a lot of treasure while cleaning up XD
I took a picture of a nice white flower..
U can nvr guess wat the flower is XD
I oso a bit shock whn I know it's identity..
It's flower of the lime XP
And thn we found a bird nest.. still have baby birds in it..
Discover a few pretty birds..
Gosh,
My yard it's really a forest.. XD
And thn I go clean up the dog house, take in clothes, hang another batch of clothes..
Fold clothes, sweep floor..
And thn online!!
Maple for 1++ hour..
I lvl so slow >.<
Chyun already 2nd job le..
Suddenly feel I'm very nub XD
And thn i start blogging~~
Hehe...

Tml will go to KL my cousin house after tkd..
Thn I can finally swim~~
Maybe try play tennis oso
But.. I don't think I will online much cause their line very slow >.<
Next week maybe on Thursday will go travel..
Visit some relatives thn go Penang..
A bit upset can't go tkd though.. >.<
Come back at maybe Sunday or Monday..
Wednesday going to sch for NIE
Thursday going to JJ maybe.. I haven't confirm with my dad..
Friday go to sch agn for NIE
Saturday and Sunday tkd~~!! XD
And thn...
Holidays over..
I only have 3 days to finish all my work..
Kinda stress though..

I love you~~ ^_^

Stayed at home..

Today sch exam not my subject..
I stayed at home..
This is the first time I can stayed at home without doing bad things feeling XP
This is also the first time I no need to go sch while exam ..
Suddenly feel like I'm getting older XD
Cause feel like it's SPM-ing or something
Last year when PMR we have to go sch everyday for exam..
Well except for the one who didn't take chinese la..
This mid-year exam we'd actually can absent cause it's not subject we taking
Hehe..
Feel like I'm a bit childish though XD
This kind of thing also can be so happy ..
But it does makes me feel like I'm not a kid anymore XD
My siblings all are younger than me but they never stop saying I'm just like a kid >.<

Well.. I'm just a bit playful and a bit childish like..
But how can they say their older sister is a kid la XP T.T
Hahaha....

However...
Quite boring eh.. staying at home.. alone..
Maple is patching and can't play until 4pm or so...
SDO nobody is going to play with me cause friends who play SDO are all examing...
Played some offline game.. But getting bored...
Thinking of watching anime..
Dunno which to pick..
I want watch all the exciting part, but dunno whr it is...
Lazy to search one by one plus need buffer so long...

Friends who are also staying at home..
Didn't show up at FB..
Maybe they still slping XP
Well.. It's them wat XD
Maybe later I go play piano..
Enhance my skills...

Talking abt piano..
I always wanted to let him hear me play XD
But kinda scare leh..
Later feel like very xia sui de >.<
Oh yea!
Talking abt instrument!
I'm gettin a violin!!
Another wish comes true XD
I'm going to learn it online..
Or maybe buy some books..

One more, last night I learnt how to melt choco!!
Well... maybe it sounds kinda like i'm very stupid >.<
I always juz heat it up and let it melt..
Who knows it need so many cautious and step to melt a choco..
I'll try do it this holidays!!

Violin~~~

Exam finally over... Tired..

Two week of exam..
drained all my energy...
Tis week since monday I'm extremely tired..
Chemistry paper can't do properly..
My eyes can't focus...
Keep blur de.. Very tired..

Last night I almost faint le..
Luckily is night time and I'm in my room..
Forget all the thing and go sleep..

Wake up in the morning still very tired...
Lucky today is Seni..
Tired...
Really nid a long nap...

Just now read his blog XD
Haha...
Study la!! Keep think think think XP

But thn...
I miss him a lot....

卫塞节！！

昨晚，被刀片割伤了，痛到半死 T.T
早上起来看到包扎好的伤口，
棉花整片都红红的 T.T
要换胶布，发现粘着了，咬紧牙关，拉下来……
痛到我整只手在抖……T.T

到了滨海，做准备工作。
早上我负责卖花，然后去浴佛那儿站岗。
之后是休息。
不过，计划突然有点变动……
我被抓去唱歌宣传筹款活动 T.T
左看看，右看看，
没有学校同学来，
好吧……那就唱吧……
唱着唱着……
突然想起麦克风是全滨海听到的……
那……St.John的听到了……-.-|||
然后，突然看到好几个学校同学陆陆续续地出现……
我完蛋了啦 T.T

回家睡觉，梦中听到打雷声……
我是有点怕打雷的……
尤其是在一个人的时候……
今天的雷有特别多和大……
害我不能安心睡了 T.T
不过这几天大热天的，终于下了场大雨

合十感恩，阿弥陀佛，法喜充满
Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu

Change

Haha,
He say I like to keep things to myself..
He knows me more than myself XP
I should change this habit le
It's really a big burden keeping things on myself..
Making me can't take a breath..
But I don't want other people to have same burden like me..
That's why I don't tell people things..
And also..
Sometimes people will stuck on dunno how to react on certain things I tell..
I used to have to same experience,
It's so embarrassing.
So I prefer don't tell,
quit the trouble on other people.

However,
it's time to get over this habit
for my own good, I think.

By the way, I wonder did he really put a CCTV inside my brain -.-
He knows it everytime..
Even if he dont know what exactly going on on me,
he jus know thr's something going on..
Without me telling him..
Stupid CCTV.... XP
My brain has been set to auto.
Auto thinking XD

I miss the time whn teacher punish me to stand...

Today exam BM..
In total we sit on chair, cannot move, for 4hour 45mnt...
zzz...
Tml I'll bring cushion for sure...

Something very stupid abt me happens today XP
I done doing P2 at 12pm..
And thn for sure, I slp..
Around 1pm I wake up,
Simply gone through the paper...
And thn..
Juz realize tat tat is one more page unprinted...
Means... I have one more page didnt do..
I told Pn Asma abt it..
And after I get the page..
I finished it in around 5 mnt..
Damn..
I should slp longer de... -.-
5 mnt before time's up,
I beh tahan le...
I go ask teacher to let me out and luckily, well she nvr say no before though...
I go outside the class,
And move around awhile,
Thn go back in the class..
Jye Lie say I sot de XP
But really... Sitting thr very boring and torturing..
And I usually finish my paper very fast de..
So most of the time I use to slp..
Nth to do...

Tml is english..
Even got nth to do...
English paper is sooo... haiz...
I think I study for SJ better..
Tat teacher nvr teach properly de..
Hope I can study everything myself...
Friday is moral..
Oso hope tat I can memorize all the definition...

Plz!!!!!

5S....

Went to sch for 5S..
In other word, gotong-royong..
Dont want to go but next week start exam till holidays..
So wont have another chance to do it..
And I'm the ketua kelas..

Most of my classmate absent, as expected..
Xing and her gang went help Pn Khoo at the lab,
Left me, Wui Fang, Jia Mun in the class...
Lucky after awhile Rezman and his gang willing to stay for helping..
And also Daryl, quite rare for him to come at Saturday..
So I tahan them all to help me..

I was hoping for Suhadah and Sharmila to come,
But Sharmila didnt..
And Suhadah sleep till 7.30am only rmb today she nid to come to sch..-.-
I go repair all the papan kenyataan
And thn clean the windows tat nvr been clean for decades XD

Suhadah finally reach sch after tat..
We both go ask En Faiz to buy a paint..
We planning to repaint our class..
And so, all the ppl help us to paint..
But most likely,
We are playing with the paint XP
Hahaha....

Just like kids..XP

因为他

因为他，我终于知道那种不是生气，不过很不爽、有点点酸酸的感觉，叫吃醋
因为他，我终于知道什么叫心急如焚，心痛
因为他，我有事没事都在想他
因为他，我生活有了一股推动力
只因为他……

以前，看别人吃醋，觉得小事罢了吃什么醋啊？酱小气……
现在自己中招了
以前，别人发生什么事，都没有酱担心
现在他发生什么再小的事，都牵着我的心……
以前，没事做，想到的就是发呆、睡觉
现在就算有事做，都能想着他……
以前，做什么事都觉得随便啦
现在做什么都要做到我最好的
以前，现在，我不同了
是好事坏事，我不清楚

总之，我不知道如果生活少了他，会是怎样的
这次的考试，不知道怎么的，我突然会想到，
为了他，一定要考好……
以前考试都没有明确目标，
这次，为了他，显然有点奇怪……因为不是为了自己……
考不好，我不知道怎样面对他
拼了命，也要考好!

The first time...

Today I pin my front hair up for the first time.
Look kinda weird..
I think I won't do it again tomorrow..
And I gave up on joining the high jump competition..
Suddenly don't feel want to.. plus I'm afraid that if I lose will 'xia sui' my rumah sukan..
So better don't join...

Next week exam start,
I start studying since Tuesday.
It kinda make my friends shock...
It's the first time I study so early before exam..
Last time I only study on the day before each subject...
Hope this time I won't get any bad results...
Since I worked so hard..
I know I will be very disappointed if it's not good..
Somehow I finally know why sometime if I lose or fail I won't be sad,
But the other time will..
For the one that I doesn't care the results, mean I didn't work hard for it..
But if I worked hard, my feeling will affect by the results...
And I think that same goes to other ppl..

Exam exam!! I will win this war!

Forgot...-.-

Doing a lot of revision these few days..
Too concentrate on the exercises..
In the end, I forgot to eat..
It's been around 3 times already...
zzz....

It reminds me that the same thing happens when I'm standard 5 and 6..
That time, teachers give a lot of homeworks..
To finish all the homeworks,
I ended up keep on doing it without stopping..
When I'm about to attend for UPSR..
I didn't eat a proper meal each day..
Juz simply eat and go back on study..
That is the time when I start getting stomach problem..
And when I go to secondary school,
It becomes gastric and my digestive system is having problem..-.-

That's what happen when I'm too focus on study..
I love to study,
It's because when I study,
I learn things and it makes me wanna learn more...-.-

It doesn't happen on other things I do even if I focus on them..
I will stop playing when I know I'm too over,
I will stop doing homeworks when I know I'm tired,
I will stop doing some other things when I'm hungry..
But same thing doesn't happen to study...-.-
I can't stop..
More like I dunno when to stop cause I lost sense to time..
I dunno how long the time has passes,
And I don't want to move my eyes away from the books...
Juz like a nerd..-.-

Hope I won't forgetting to eat again...-.-
And plz don't gastric...
I know a few more time gastric,
A worst ill will occur... again..
Juz like before I attend PMR...

Please.... (>.<)

Went to stadium

Today, everybody going to stadium..
I didn't join anything but I got to follow..
Or I will be left alone in sch...
Whole class go stadium..
So I bring my books go do
Chee Kiat and Choo even geng..
They bring chess go play..-.-

My friends all laugh and ask me why didn't I stay at sch if want do exercises..
It's because,
If I'm alone in sch.. All the teacher won't have much student to run errand for them...
And I'll be the victim...-.-
And if it's like that, I can't do my revision exercises..
So, I better go stadium cause nobody will kacau me there..
Even if I have to stay under the sun most of the time..

I staring to have confident in my add math..
Do a lot of exercises,
And keep on correct
So, confident coming back...

I'm juz got home..
And found out that Xuecheng's nose got sunburn XD
Lucky I'm not facing the sunlight..

Poor Xuecheng... XD

This week

Mural Competition

Tis whole week, school postpone the science exhibition
But they are having latihan sukan..
Most of the student go to stadium this week
We have to combine classes..

Yesterday no study, we played, talked, and take time do revision
Well, actually I wanted and planned to join the sukan..
But Rumah Putra didn't come and search for participant..
And I dont want to find them..
Maybe they already have participant better than me
So, never mind la

Today I went for a mural competition at Convent
The sch is nicer than my sch..well, as usual XP
We had to draw on a 70cm x 60cm plank
The theme is flowers
We done drawing and was about to paint
Then we realize that the group beside us splash a lot drops of blue color on our plank..-.-
So we got to change the idea..
Anyhow, the mural turn up quite nice
I take picture of it

When I got back to sch,
my auntie already gone..
So i called my dad..
He not so happy but lucky he didnt say anything anymore
I showed my drawing to some friends
And they dont believe it's my work..-.-
Haha.. can't blame them
Cause I rarely ppl what I'm capable to do of..
Some of my friends still don't believe I'm a black belt in tkd oso XP
And some didn't believe I can play instruments
And 99% of them dunno I can sing well XD
I'm so mystery XD

Got back home,
Study till fall asleep..
Very tired..
It's been 2 or 3 nights I stay up late..
For me it's late la
Cause my regular time to sleep is actually 10.00 - 10.30

Next week exam..
don't have much confident..
Scare dunno how to answer...
Especially all the essays and moral..
I still dunno how to get marks for moral..
Oh and oso chinese..
Seem quite hard...
Btw, Seni clash with Bio or Phy..
If En Ghani say I need to do the exam this time,
I have to discuss with him..
Tml go ask him and who knows he has some comment for my competition today

Working hard for exam... (>.<)

Mother's side families visited

We cleaned up the house today..
To welcome our respected, belonged families
My aunts and uncles and cousins come to visit
We had lunch together.
And then chit chat for a looong time..
The uncles chat with my dad about national issues
The aunts chat with my mom about teenagers, schools, education system...
My cousin, Qing chat with me for school things.
Hong Cheng and Yi Chen are both being left out.. so they juz stare in the space..
Yunshi and Jiawey playing a lot with dolls..
Xuecheng and Yi Heng dunno why they keep on having clashes with each other..

After lunch, I discuss homework with Qing.
She want me to tutor her at tis Mid-year holidays..
So I'm staying at her house for the first week of holidays..
Around 3 days I think...
Xuecheng wants to follow.. So I'll most likely giving tuition for 3 ppl...
Qing said I can be a teacher in future,
cause I teach things clearly..
I laughed and said 'No' -.-
I used to be wanting to become a teacher,
But after a lot of year studying..
I decided not to be a teacher anymore..-.-
Seems so stressful...

Oh yeah, since I'll be going to KL on the first week of holidays,
I'll bake cake at KL too..
Plus my cousin's house near the bakery
It'll be really easy to get ingredients..
And Qing wants to learn to bake oso..
So it'll be like a package for her...
Learn baking, study Math and some other sch sub from me..
Hope I'll be helpful..
Cause I haven't finish my F4 syllabus..
And she's F5...
Well, whatever it is, I'll try my best to help her!!
If she have F5 question, I'll juz read through her textbooks first..
Who knows I might understand some and can help with it...

Fight on for Mid-year exam!!

星期天

早上起来，出去和爸妈吃早餐。
回家上网，打开Facebook看看……
等了好一阵子，等不到要等的人。
突然想起，他昨天说会在Maple一整天，
果然，他已经在Maple了。
就这样，我从早上陪他到傍晚……
到他终于上到Lvl 90
我大部分时间都没有玩啦，
只是开着，偶尔打一下怪兽
不过屁股是没有离开椅子，
眼睛更加不会离开Monitor
怕万一他Send东西来会miss掉。
下午我把大部分的家务做完了，
就开始真正玩了。
当然可以玩一整天这种好事，
在我身上发生一定要有相等的代价……
就是……
我妈妈说直到我SPM过后我才能再接着玩……
那时明年年底的事了……
虽然是有点不甘心，有点担心自己会后悔……
不过算了吧，
反正我也该开始好好读书了……
还好上网还是被允许的，只是不能玩网上游戏罢了……

下个礼拜开始考试了，
这个礼拜准备开始冲！
上网还会啦，不过会很少……
不然成绩出来，考试不及格，我爸妈会把我杀了……

有件事我不明白，
他们从来不关心我的功课，
不理会我在学校有什么事，
考试我读不读书他们也不理，
成绩出来，只要老师没有特别关注，他们也不会关注……
意思就是说，只要我没有不及格，
他们就不理我考到怎样了……

就这样我一年一年地过，
15年这样的学习生涯，导致我很懒惰-.-
不抄Note，功课拖很久才做完然后又很久才交上……
本性难移……叫学程帮忙管我，
他每次都不凶的，我哪里会认真哪……-o-
每次听到朋友说被父母管功课，
或者一定要做完功课才能玩，
尤其是小学时，那时候朋友的父母都最严，
功课一本一本检查，
我的没人管 T.T
以前还觉得很爽……
现在……觉得有点 hmm……不知道怎样讲啦……

总之，现在我很想要有个人来管我，（因为明年SPM了……）
我没有做功课就会骂我，
就算我知道我会很不爽那个人破坏我在享受，
不过我是个很后知后觉的人，所以过后我就会很感激那个人让我做完功课 XD
最后的条件是，那个人不能轻易放弃，要有耐心（不能像学程那样才一天就放弃我了T.T）
想当时学程的放弃，对我来说是一个很大的打击 T.T
让我觉得自己还想不可药救了 T.T
所以，plz！不要放弃我，有耐心一点 T.T

（哈哈！突然觉得自己很神经质-.-)

回忆总是好笑的 XD

爸爸在凌晨1点多到达飞机场，
我在家等他回来。
等到2点，自己去睡觉了 XP
早上10点才起床。

昨晚，不知道怎样的，跟他谈天谈到以前跆拳道的时候。
很好笑 XD
我是在大概四年级的时候，开始学的
那个时候他不在。
然后不知道什么时候，
他就突然出现了。
当时我还在想，这个人哪里来的啊？？
因为那时候刚来的都是白带开始，他却不是。
然后我们四兄弟姐妹都很崇拜他，
因为他厉害过我们。
虽然那时还有Caesar, Kai Xian 和 Jing Xuan
不过Caesar和我们的年龄差别太大，不敢跟他讲话
Kai Xian 当时就很少讲话，没有什么和她沟通
Jing Xuan 觉得她太厉害，整天拿奖，刚好她又小过我……面对她有点不好意思外加自卑……-.-
最后就剩下崇群咯……
我对当时的记忆模糊，
他说那时他很讨厌我们，因为整天找他问跆拳道的东西……
然后当我6年级的时候，
他说他对我改观了，
因为有一次他看我练习的时候很呆……
听他描述当时的情况，
我觉得我现在还是没有变-.-

突然发现，当回忆起自己以前的时候，
总会觉得自己很好笑 XD