Change

For some unknown reason,
I feel like I have somewhat changed,
after all that I went through.

I had an extremely upset stomach for a whole week,
so I changed my eating habit.
I had a little argument with my boy and deleted all my games in phone,
I start to have more free times, to either study or slow down my life pace.

Bit by bit, I start to realize things, some of them have been realized since a long time ago,
but I have forgotten, and some of which I just found out.
At the same time, it feels like I found nothing out, it has this little change in my mood to my life,
but nothing seemed to change exactly.

During the past few months, I have encountered a few funerals of both relatives' and neighbors', due to various reasons.
Some were expected and some weren't.
And I saw a lot of ways of the livings, handling the dead one.
Cry, laugh, hiding, facing...
Some funerals weren't as sad as we thought, it has become somewhat a gathering for distance relatives.
We talked about past, shared about experiences and somewhat forgot about the sadness that was there.
Some were the sad ones. They cried, shouting, hoping the dead would be revived.
And then there were my family, who stood there to support, standing by  to offer helps.
I wouldn't be thinking about if my loved ones leaving me.
My dad told me before, just pay respect and live on.
And when there is a chance, spend it all with your loved ones.

Be happy and remember love.
Peace :)